"I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love. "

Carrie Bradshaw said it best.
whats so wrong with wanting something more than a hook up?

im the girl who doesn't believe in hooking up. i want something more.
"True Love Waits"
i believe that, im saving it.
respect it please.

don't call me a prude because i wont give it up to you.

end of that rant.

today was the same as yesterday. except today i actually did my hair.


let me talk for one second, let me tell you the truth
my life is a play, your a character too.
you play the part of the romeo i need
and im the simple girl who fell to her knees.
you took my heart,
kept it at your side never once looking back,
just knowing that i'd survuve.
how could you be so blunt?
you thought wrong.
you are my heart.
and you were my soul
now all you left is this empty hole,
a void to fill with the next meaningless thing.
you broke my heart, but yet you kept it with you.
why do you hate me?
what did i do to you?
its the latest in your vegas show
. sixty dollars gets your through the door.
the host says "now look here, you'll see the heart of a sad girl who thought she was the world to a romeo who never gave a damn. lets laugh at her"
i was the flavor of the week, two scoops please.
please and thank you, it got you on your knees.
you beg and plead for me to stop,
but i wont.
this is my revenge,
this is what you deserve.
the bitter pill that you need to take,
in my hands i hold your fate.
with one swift move my hands will be bloodied
your body will be lifeless
and i'll be happy.

wake up little girl from your horrible dream,
your down on your knees and you heave at the drain
how can you dream such horrid things?
have you no morals?
are your thoughts unpure?
child go to sleep, tomorrow is a new day.
think of the sheep and the cats who play in the hay.
sleep my child sleep.
the sheep will guide your way.
wake up wake up. theres nothing there
they lied to you now.
your heart is broken once more.
kill me now please.
a cup of poison should do the trick.
theres nothing more fascinating than walking in a dead girls shoes.
now i know i don't have problems.