PSC post. i got no answer

This is a greet i got:: Quote:

What do you do? You hope. Hope will keep you grounded.

my response::

hope.pray.wish.smile.

im the one person who always says look on the brightside.
i can't even do that.
i get like this a lot.
and i never fully recover.

i mask my loneliness with fake smiles and cheer for other people. but i can't do it for myself.
and then i wonder why no one is ever there for me when i need them. because i always put up a wall.
i make everyone think everything is ok, and everything is just fine. so they can be happy so i can make them happy.

and i don't even know whats wrong with myself.
i put up a facade.

i honestly have no idea what to do anymore.