daddy's little girl( a prayer)

Dear God:
you see that man up there, thats my dad. That picture was taken just this past summer when we went to the Grand Canyon.
you threw us a curve ball on his birthday in august.thats when you put him in the hospital for the first time.
you know how that went

now you know how things are going.
i can't be angry with you, because i know you do everything for a reason.
but why?
why my dad?
please god, listen to me.
if you make sure he comes out alright, i'll be eternally grateful. you have no idea. this isn't his time, yet every dr's appointment i feel like we are being brought closer to the end.
god, if your plan is to take his life, please dont. take mine instead.
if i lose my dad what will i do? what will any of us do? he is the glue that holds out family together.
you can't take the glue away god. you just can't
if you help him god, i know he will gain faith.
or is this it, becuase my dad doesn't go to church and doesn't care for religion your doing this?
if it is, then thats pretty messed up god.

i've only had 18, going on 19 years with him. how much longer will i have?
god just grant me this one thing, and i will never ask for anything.

i love you daddy